Comments on: A Life of Wanting Thinness

By: Brittany Chaffee

Brittany Chaffee — Tue, 15 Oct 2019 18:38:19 +0000

Morgan,

Thank you so much for reading and the warm kudos. GOOD FOR YOU FOR RUNNING THAT MARATHON! You are magical. Sending you all the love and emotional body strength your way. xoxo `Brittany

By: Morgan

Morgan — Tue, 15 Oct 2019 14:05:43 +0000

Brittany,
You’re writing is always beautiful but this was especially powerful! I ran a marathon two days ago and I’m happy to be done with training so I can “slim” down and go back to salads and cycling classes. This body ran a MARATHON and yet that isn’t enough. Thank you for your words as they are a great reminder that life is bigger than these thin little thoughts in our heads.

By: Brittany Chaffee

Brittany Chaffee — Mon, 14 Oct 2019 21:29:08 +0000

Odessa,
Your words mean everything to me!! So many beautiful, strong women struggle with these thoughts and I find so much strength in return talking about them. Even though, at times, they can be so hard. I hope you can find moments of peace as well. They’re so important. And we are all in this inner battle together. Stay strong. <3 ~Brittany

By: odessa

odessa — Mon, 14 Oct 2019 20:43:02 +0000

Brittany, thanks for sharing this and I’m sad you’ve had these struggles <3 I had an eating disorder from 14-24ish but remember in middle school tightening a belt as tight around my waist as I could and wearing it in hopes my waist would get smaller bc it was "too big". I was already underweight but other people's fixation on my low weight convinced me the only thing worthy of attention was being skinny. 13 years later and dealing with a slew of health conditions from years of purging has been a wake up call, because now all I want is to be healthy yet the allure of being "thin" still has a hold on my brain. It's a living hell I wouldn't wish on anyone. I'm happy to hear you can find moments of peace, and hope you find many more. Lots of love to everyone dealing with this.

By: Brittany Chaffee

Brittany Chaffee — Mon, 14 Oct 2019 19:03:24 +0000

Marie –

Thank you thank you thank you thank you for your words. I am so sorry you’ve struggled with this as well, and I’m happy to hear you’ve found help and continue to become stronger for your courage. Women treat their bodies like glorified race horses, never good enough and constantly expecting perfection. Nothing good comes from wanting to be thin, but everything good comes from finding the bravery to fight the stigma. Hope you’re feeling better. And thank you so much for reading. xoxo ~Brittany

By: Marie Lamensch

Marie Lamensch — Mon, 14 Oct 2019 15:32:04 +0000

I have an eating disorder that started when I was 27. I am now 35 and still suffer from it. I can relate to your story. Until the anorexia started , I never really craved thinness. I has little self-confidence but I liked sports and even though I was a little more chubby than perhaps the average girl, I had no problem with it. But a suddenly lost a lot of weight as a result of malaria and it all went wrong from there. My brain suddenly decided that I was okay, no, that I SHOULD, survive on very little. Couple that with a detestation of my body as a result of a sexual abuse and you had the “perfect” trigger.I wanted to smaller, invisible. Therapy has helped make me happy again though you can not fully ever be when you still suffer from that deficit brought by anorexia. As you say, in my case is nothing good in wanting to be thin. It doesn’t reflect who I am, it works against me, it doesn’t make me happier. Thank you for your words.

By: Brittany Chaffee

Brittany Chaffee — Mon, 14 Oct 2019 14:50:43 +0000

Jenny,
Thank you so much for this. Our truth is so important and I know these thoughts affect so many wonderful, beautiful women. I hope they subside for you – I’m always working on it. But know you’re not alone!

xoxo,
Brittany

By: Jenny

Jenny — Mon, 14 Oct 2019 13:54:17 +0000

I was just thinking about this in the shower this morning – wanting desperately to look like I did in photos six years ago… when I thought I was too fat. Where did it start and how can I make it end? I read this in tears because your timing and truth is absolutely hitting like a (much needed) hammer today. Thank you.